Crossroads Infoshop Staff Blog

i'm surviving. waking up. and discovering some deeper feelings. and now i understand why so many people get depressed and immobile when it comes to feeling the gravity of what we are up against in a world of oppression, separatism, and exploitation.

the scary thing is that our biggest enemy seems to be inside us. we don't know how to get along with each other. we don't know how be productive without hurting each other.

to complicate things more, everything we can do to change the world involves taking a risk and experimenting. we don't know what it's going to look like down the road or if the action is even worth our effort. it makes trying seem hopeless.

i wish that all it took was a snap of the finger, and that our radical projects would be completed and we'd have the results here immediately. but on second thought, i think the projects themselves are not all that hard. instead, its learning how to deal with each other. how to treat each other like decent human beings so we can move forward with our agenda. we're fighting a sickness that has overcome the human race. we are fighting, at times, a part of ourselves and what it means to be human.

but we can't give up. we are the only hope. so as dark as it feels. please stay focused. i'm not saying to avoid those dark feelings. i think it's necessary to grieve and cry about the situation. all i am saying is that i rely on you to make this new world happen. so i hope that you wake up and take some responsibility. we have to learn how to love each other and provide real support. quit joking around and teasing me: i have to know that you really care so that I can survive.